Last Words of Wisdom

I met up with my mentor today before work to glean some last nuggets of wisdom before starting school tomorrow (a week long orientation rather, which is then followed by the official starting of classes).  As always, he delivered, with tips for studying and retaining the vast amount of knowledge that med school offers up.  “You need to study for medical school like you’re drinking Lake Michigan from a straw.”  He elaborated by explaining how necessary it was for someone in my position, with the immense responsibility of raising children and having a career on top of med school, to continuously take in and review the material, little by little, over and over.  He also advised staying one month ahead of the material being presented so that when the inevitable sick child or broken down car prevents me from getting to school, I am still ahead of the game.  

I’m looking forward to orientation week and getting a better idea of how my days will look and what’s expected of me.  Several people have asked me if I’m nervous.  I’m not nervous at all for school, quite the contrary and definitely stoked.  I am nervous however about the amount of planning that will be going into my family’s day to day lives.  I’ve put several separate calendars into Google calendar to organize where everyone is at all times.  I have one for my two older kiddos that are going to a babysitter after school, one for the baby that’s going to a different babysitter (the next town over, because we’ve been with her for several years and I refuse to move the baby from her), my work schedule, my school schedule, and a schedule for all other things like doctor appointments and whatnot. 

Sending the babysitter schedules off to the respective babysitters got me feeling a little emotional.  I’ve been able to spend a lot of time with the kids this summer and now looking at our schedules, it’ll amount to a couple hours a day.  I hate this part of it.  I pray that my kids don’t resent me for not being there as much as I want to.  I’m so thankful for the people in our lives that love our kids and care for them.  But as a mom, it’s so hard to not be the one that’s there the most.  I hope they see how hard I worked to chase my dream and that they can do it too.